Connie Sue 🌾

Getting Real About My Current State of Being

I’ve lived with MCS (Multiple Chemical Sensitivities) for most of my life. The severity ebbs-n-flows with no rhyme or reason. It is what it is and I’ve learned to live with it.

If I’m being real with myself, MCS isn’t my primary issue right now.

The aches and pains are back. My brain fog is pretty minor but becoming noticeable. I’m gaining weight but not eating enough to gain. And, I’m tired even though I slept all night.

Fourteen years ago I was in a similar place…

It actually started many years prior but, 14 years ago, the state of my health was much more dire. I felt the Grim Reaper lurking nearby.

I saw a Naturopathic doctor who helped me regain my health.

I stopped seeing her after my job of 30 years was eliminated and I decided to move into my van and travel (I travelled a LOT back then!).

At that time, remote healthcare wasn’t much of a thing. She also retired several months later and I never felt the need to find a new Naturopath.

So here I am…

The symptoms I’m starting to encounter now and the feeling that’s been creeping upon me feels eerily similar to 14 years ago.

I need to do something but I’m not quite sure what direction I want to take. I’ve been trying to fix it on my own with what little knowledge I have. But it’s becoming clear - in a semi-muddy sort of way - that I may need outside help.

I found some Naturopathic doctors within an hour of my hometown area who work remotely as well as in-person.

I won’t be back in my hometown area until late-April…

The question I need to answer is, do I contact this doctor now or do I wait and see her in-person?

Part of me wants to see her in-person and part of me wants to get the ball rolling now.

Sometimes I just overthink things. When fatigue sets in, it’s more challenging to manage the overthinking.

I’m not here asking anyone for answers…

Advice is always appreciated but these questions can only be answered by me.

When I went thru this 14 years ago, my daughter Nikki was 16 years old and still living at home. She’s quite the encourager and helped me get thru a very challenging time.

Today, she’s a 30 year old adult living in south Florida.

In writing this post…

I see my faint, unfounded fear is not having outside motivation. Nikki’s only a text message or video call away but it’s not fair to rely on another person to do my work for me.

Gone are the days when I could just walk into a room and she’d look at me knowing I needed encouragement.

Now, when I’m not visiting her in south Florida, there are many miles, different time zones, and schedules between us… and that’s just life.

The fact is, my life is my responsibility. Period.

Only time will tell what decision I make… but that’s my story and I’m stickin’ to it!

Connie 🌼

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